R.O.B.My Profile
I'm a 19 yr old girl, living in South Tx. I love it here, but am dying to leave. I love music, and i love to dance. I love my FAMILY and i wouldn't be who i am right now if it weren't for my FAMILY and FRIENDS. I'm an ourdoor girl, who loves to hunt, fish, play sport...ne thing outside, u name it and wanna play it I'M THERE. oh yeah...and I LOVE TRuCKS!!!
My Favorites
Favorite Films JUNO, Steel Magnolias, the notebook, Top Gun, Corpse Bride, Nightmare Before Christmas, Sweeny Todd
Favorite Actors Helena Bonham Carter, Johnny Depp, Julia Stiles, Ellen Page, Micheal Cera
Favorite Directors Tim Burton, Jason Reitman, Rob Zombie
never take any one for granted
cause you never know when you might lose them.
I've never taken this person for granted...he unfortuneately took me
for granted, and i think that the one suffering more in the end is me.
He was my best friend, for the longest time.
The one i could run to when
something was going horrible, or even when need some just to talk to.
Our conversations were endless, and our fights were short and sweet.
We shared a love for music, sushi, and JUNO lol...
"who's ready for some chromomagnificance?"
His family welcomed me with open arms, and his friends all became my friends. People i was so used to seeing every day, and being able to be around brought a simple joy to my life.
And then there was a hospital,
a doctor telling him that if he didn't stop drinking he'd die.
8 days i laid there by his side, making sure my best friend was feeling his most at ease.
A promise was made, that he would give himself time to heal and he would not drink at least for a few mnths....which i was ok with...i would of preferred him to stop all together, but when u're addicted it's only harder.
He was doing so good, being strong...
I was there whenever he had a break down, and felt like he needed a drink,
I was there to make sure he didn't...helping him through.
He never drank infront of me, out of respect i guess...i was the only one to stay by his side, and to see the pain he went through.
Then one night, Pharr West, he was out with his co-workers, and the pressure got to him.
He calls me to go get him, and i could smell the alcohol on his breath.
I asked him nicely if he had been drinking, and he kindly told me no.
I guess that was the first initial blow to the heart, was that he lied to me, he had never lied to me before, our friendship was based on honesty.
And then towards the end of the night, i told him that i already knew he drank, and he confessed, said that he didn't care about anything any more, and it was almost as if he showed me no appreciation for everything i went through with him...and in a sense he kind of threw the promise, and all my time and dedication to try and help him in my face.
He took me for granted thinking that i would always be there for him,
but my constant worrying, and my constant will to try and help him was slowly but surely killing me, and it was bad enough that he was killing himself...i wasn't about to let him sit there and slowly kill me.
Metaphorically speaking.
Yet in the end, i think i'm the one who is suffering the most...i constantly worry about him...
whether or not he's ok,
is he drinking?
Is he around people who are trying to help him?
Does he regret what he did?
Does he realize the friendship he lost...
because i sure as hell do...
I had to do the hardest thing, and that was to walk away from someone i cared about so much.
From a family that i loved to be around and spend time with...a little kid that i adored to be around.
A set of friends, that felt like family...they are people that will never be replaced, because u can't find friends like the ones i've made thanks to him.
And once again, i feel like i have lost out, he gets to keep all of that,
and i'm left with the heart aches, and the struggle of letting go.
If anyone has any type of advice out there...was i wrong to walk away?
R.O.B
u're always going to be with me
no matter what. Till the end...
I'll always be there for you
when u need me.
Know that...and remember it
Forever
Love Alwayz,
*Gina*
I'll be OK
Wishing yesterday had been a dream.
What happened was something that could not have been foreseen.
Pain, Sorrow, Tears, and Heartahce
All of what was brought upon me.
So much time and dedication to a friendship once so true...
But i guess now it doesn't matter when it comes to his brew.
I had looked the othe way numerous times.
But this time...way too soon...how could you?
8 days I laid there & almost never left your side. The thought of what could've happened to you plagued my mind.
What would I have done with out my best friend...so there i stayed, worrying as i usually do with you.
I did everything to make sure you were ok.
But now that I've seen how easy it was for you to throw it all away.
I'm going to have to walk away.
I won't lie, this all still brings tears to my eyes,
Sorrow to my voice, and heartache.
Tanto dolor, por tanta soledad
Se me extranas, mira al cielo
quienes estrellas estare yo.
and I'll be ok
I'll keep apart of you with me,
and every where i go you'll always be.
Flyleaf ACOUSTIC
I love FLYLEAF, and lacey has an AMAZING voice, and i would much rather hear her ACOUSTIC,
it has an upclose and personal feel to it...
she's AMAZING
Hello Big Puffy Version of June Bug
One of my all time,
can watch any part
of the day, type movie.
It has an acquired sense of
comedy, any one who doesn't
get the humor, well sry u're
retarded!!! JK...
Watch the trailer for those
of you who havn't seen it,
and if in those 2 minutes and
40 something seconds u havn't
already fallen in love with
it...then ....
you suck!!!
jk once again,
but no seriously
watch it and
see for your self :D
what i long to do
a USMC cadence,
not technically that
i want to be a USMC
but this was the best
version of a cadence
on YOUTUBE...hahaha
MILITARY LIFE ROCKS!!
The Recruiter
So my recruiter is cool,
and he seems to like my STATS.
Thinking bout leaving as my
new years resolution.
Things to work on
look like this:
weight
diet
pushups
sit ups
and that's the jest...
of everything that's holding me back
from coming to my full potentail.
Military life is what i long to live!!!!
